Archive for February, 2014

you don’t know what psycho is

Posted: February 16, 2014 in Personal

until you’ve seen her lose everything in her mind and let go 

screaming things you can’t even begin to understand

until you’ve spent years in your own mind with no one to talk to

until you build up every thing you ever wanted to say to anyone but you never did

until it starts to spill out 

and once it overflows

it won’t stop, can’t stop

and you fear the very thing you witnessed happen to someone you love

happening to you 

so you try 

and try 

to hold back 

to keep it in 

but it won’t stop 

the tears flow faster

the voices get louder

shriller

the pressure in your head

the blood in your veins

and then you lose yourself. 

 

you don’t know what psycho is.

Well, Fuck You Too.

Posted: February 11, 2014 in Fiction

She wants you to fuck her. She wants you to fuck her hard.

Is she confronting? Does she scare you?

Then fuck her.

Fuck her so hard that all these bullshit thoughts leave her head. Fuck her so that she’s too occupied to calculate how many pills she needs to go to sleep and never wake up.

Or better yet, make love to her. Make love to her so that maybe, just maybe, your love can make her love herself a little bit more.

Just enough to let go of the blade.

She’s staring, squinting, trying hard to see herself in that mirror. There’s no romantic mascara stains down her cheeks. She hasn’t been able to bring herself to do her own makeup for the past few days. Or has it been weeks, she doesn’t even know anymore.

Her mind is in a frenzy. Her body, taking deep calm breaths.

You know what?

Fuck you.

Pick Me Up

Posted: February 11, 2014 in Personal

My mind is a mess.