you don’t know what psycho is

Posted: February 16, 2014 in Personal

until you’ve seen her lose everything in her mind and let go 

screaming things you can’t even begin to understand

until you’ve spent years in your own mind with no one to talk to

until you build up every thing you ever wanted to say to anyone but you never did

until it starts to spill out 

and once it overflows

it won’t stop, can’t stop

and you fear the very thing you witnessed happen to someone you love

happening to you 

so you try 

and try 

to hold back 

to keep it in 

but it won’t stop 

the tears flow faster

the voices get louder

shriller

the pressure in your head

the blood in your veins

and then you lose yourself. 

 

you don’t know what psycho is.

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Pick Me Up

Posted: February 11, 2014 in Personal

My mind is a mess.

Squeaky Beach

Posted: January 24, 2014 in Personal

Again

Posted: January 24, 2014 in Personal

I had a dream about you, again. 

I don’t understand this deep rooted obsession with you. I would say subconscious obsession, but oh, I know I am. 

 

My Favourite Thing About You

Posted: January 12, 2014 in Personal

Is that even if I pull away pettily when we disagree, you still keep holding me. 

It makes me feel like I’m being silly. 

And I like that. Because feeling silly renders every argument invalid, unimportant.